My Best Friend

I will probably write alot in this blog about things far back in my past, and this year especially most of it will probably be about my love life. I do have a purpose for this. Last year, I wrote a blog post on my family blog, Ten Years, One Amazing Life, because last year was the 10 year anniversary of when Marty and I first met. Our journey together officially started there, and that was extremely important and special to me. This year we will celebrate our 10 year WEDDING anniversary, so that will also be a very special occasion. We love to look back over the last 10 years and our life together. I also love to look back at the journey before that got us together and took us here. I believe it is an amazing story with the handwriting of God on every page. He set in motion all the plans for Marty and I to meet, and I am forever grateful to Him for allowing me to be married to my best friend. Marty and I were never friends. We had never met before, never knew each other, and the day we met it was completely fate, no human pre-planning was involved. We started talking and eventually dating, but we had one of those relationships where we just fell in love and that was it. We weren't friends first, we were just meant to be. I struggled with it alot because it happened so fast, since I almost married the wrong guy and had just ended that relationship right before meeting Marty. But I had a strong relationship with God then and He had been preparing me for a while for that to happen. I was ready. I always thought I would end up marrying one of those other guys, those friends I'd had for so long. I didn't know Mr. Right was someone just around the corner who I'd never even met! There are alot of things to love about Marty: he's cute and funny and a great person, but right now my favorite thing is that I can be myself with him, and he has always loved me for me, baggage and all! I can tell him anything and everything and we can talk about it. We talk about crazy stuff all the time. I totally could have been his friend in high school, but we might not have ended up together. No, it had to happen this way instead. I sometimes wish I had known him sooner so I could have spent more time with him (and we would have more kids! lol), but I look forward to the years we could have ahead of us in the future and am just thankful for God's perfect plan. Marty has become my best friend in the whole world, and in a marriage I just don't see how it could be any other way.

Valentines

Wow. Marty and I were just having a conversation the other day about all the Valentine's Days we could remember in our lives, single or married. There weren't very many we could remember! lol But the thought just now, this second, hit me that I forgot about one that I never thought I would: February 14th, 1998. I'm pretty sure that's what year it was. My boyfriend and I (I am going to be careful not to mention any names since this is a public blog. I don't want to upset anyone!) went to the old theater in Cullman to see Titanic. I squawled like a baby all night long. I'm pretty sure I tried not to cry during the movie, because I hate crying in front of people. But at home, and probably all the way home, my poor boyfriend, I probably cried the whole time. Ironically, that was the night a boy that went to the same high school as I did met a tragic end. He fell off some train tracks on a bridge and was killed. One of my friends called me the very next day to tell me it had happened. He and I were just friendly acquaintances, in the Key Club together, he had come by my house one time with a friend of mine. It was just enough to be devastatingly sad, knowing that someone I knew and was close to my age was gone so young. I remember going to the funeral, barely, and seeing all these guys I knew in school, who thought they were tough, crying. It was terrible. I can't believe I forgot to mention that. Valentine's Day was also the day I officially, finally decided to say yes to a guy who kept asking me out at school when I was in the 9th grade. That became kind of like our anniversary, though we dated only a few months before he broke my heart. Many Valentine's Days after that left me with a bitter feeling, but I got over it, of course. But now it has a much different feeling, since that boy is no longer with us either. He passed away last year, on my dad's birthday. I waddled my fat pregnant self to his funeral and I will never forget it, or him. Valentine's Day was also the day, when we were seniors in high school, that my best friend broke up with her long-time high school sweetheart, and just a few days after, mine broke up with me too! We were suddenly single ladies again, although she went right in to a relationship with her now husband, and I got involved with someone new that spring. It took me a LONG time to get over that one! Ahhh...the memories...and the heartaches...of Valentine's Day. I've never been a big fan.

First of All...

I didn't want to bore everyone by posting my random thoughts on my family blog, so I decided to start a personal blog just for ME. I have so many crazy thoughts in my head I just like to write them down, and I thought I would try this method of recording so I could share these thoughts with other people who might be interested. My crazy thoughts just might help someone else out there know they are not alone. We might start up a conversation about crazy thoughts. I could keep going but I'm not. I'm also not going to tell too many people I know that I have this blog! LOL I used to keep a diary, well, for most of my life, until I got married. I have alot of my brooding, teenage angst recorded on paper. I love diaries, and I love the handwritten approach because it is so personal and special to later generations. Of course, so much of what I wrote is silly, but at the time it certainly wasn't. On this blog I want to write about many different things. I want to reflect on things that have changed the course of my life to this point, which could be anything from something somebody said to something on a TV show. Believe me, these are going to be very random thoughts! I think it's hilarious how my brain works sometime and I look forward to recording that.